Christi are u doing ok?

Well it's sad how some songs express my feelings exactly...This song it's like it was written for me...Everything described has happened to me and the most ironic part?My name is actually Christi... =\The part that gets me the most every single time is where he sings :
Oh clouds of time seem to rain on innocence left behind...It never goes away...Can you stay strong?Can you go on?Christi are you doing ok?A rose that won't bloom winter's kept you - don't waste your whole life trying to get back what was taken away...
Made me cry the very first time...It's sad having to deal everyday with the pain...And hard...I decided to go on...It helps me get through the day...I turned into poetry and express my feelings through writing...I wrote a lot of sad poems describing my situation...I have one talking about a fall's day it says everything but in a way I can only understand...I never let anyone see what's really going on with me...Somewhere deep inside smt has been taken from me and since then I'm not the same person.I used to be full of hope,loving bright colors,listening to bright music,I used to be full of joy and love...Not anymore...Really now?None of these matters...I am who I am and I know now after a long time of denial we can't change our past and some wounds are supposed to never heal...The pain will still linger no matter what...All you can do?Keep dealing with it...Someday,maybe it won't hurt this much...I can't erase my past...I wish I could...It's just my little dark secret...I chose not to tell anyone,trying to forget...I don't wanna be seen as a heroine or people pity me...Everyone knows I have a dark side they just don't know why...And they will never find out either...Nothing more,nothing less...